conversation got me here; another night alone in the city

thePASSION.
Saturday, December 31, 2005

last week of the holidays ending.
this whole week was jam-packed.
and i mean literally.

marcus is coming home soon !
hope he found the picks :D
but school's starting soon too.
oh dang.
means trg's coming up.

162 drivers are so ugh.
two of them just blew me off today.
that was just unethical man.

and why in the world.
did the UK have their own "pimp my ride"?
the host is such a wannabe.

mentally preparing myself for diverted focus.
its studies and trg again.
just hope most of my schedule doesnt clash with most of my friends' schedules.
most importantly i hope it doesnt clash with any church activities.
ok i shall be happy and anticipating.
its not all that bad i guess.

there's a ring around her finger
last chance for changing lanes
and you missed it by a mile
welome to the new year.

~~perfect~~ion at 12:15 AM

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Friday, December 30, 2005

i just found out today.
that a keyboard can substitute a bass.
wow.
all the songs played were random.
but we did more full songs than usual.
One Way's still the best :D

prank-called a few people.
thanks to someone's ingenious idea.
then homeward bound.

i bore witness to reality.
the harsh element of truth.
every utter of instigation.
every careless suggestion.
laying down the path of consequence.
for a bearer to take.
branches of burden stretch as far.
implications of misconceptions.
irrefundable reputations.
screwed opportunities for advancement.
strong faith clouded by misinterpretation.
innocence smeared by majority.
just stop and listen.

and wave all these discrepancies away
and i'll peter out these misconceptions
give out faith at my discretion
live a life that you would think was sane.

~~perfect~~ion at 12:22 AM

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Wednesday, December 28, 2005

i've never been to anywhere beyond the yio chu kang red line.
until today.
jael and i missed the bukit batok stop.
and ended up at jurong east.
all because we were too engrossed in our conversation.

sherlyn's barbecue.
the guys were basketball-ing.
floor was wet from the rain and guess what.
one of them jumped up to catch the ball.
slipped and ended up on the floor plus the ball went smack right in his face.
and jael caught the whole thing on her phone !
i seriously empathize with him.
but watching the video with the sound effects created by jael and i just cracked me up.
dont get me wrong though he looked really cute the way he fell.
so its all in the name of BASKETBALL fun :D

another joke of the day.
imagine moments of silence.
as jael and i go up the escalator to the mrt platform.
suddenly a loud PIANG !
jael dropped her plastic bag of presents.
oh my crap the cup dinesh gave her !
i was laughing like nobody's business at the whole irony of it.
before that jael was like.
eh remind me not to swing my plastic bag around cuz there's a cup in it.
oh man the whole platform was staring at me.
but it was too hilarious for me to stop there and then.
guess what jael's excuse was.
"i thought my hand was free so i just let go".
apparently she admits she has this disability where she thinks her hands are free so she releases stuff in her hands randomly.
its ok jael.
you may not have a cup.
however you have a MUG.

anyone who wants a glimpse of the FALL video.
please approach jael.
but prepare for your guts to fall out.
and yes yes.
tell me about my hobo-ness.

you're the face before the cameras
the smile i'd like to earn
the closest thing to perfect
in a hollywood to burn.

~~perfect~~ion at 4:46 PM

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worship min auditions today.
went quite well i guess.
i didnt know i could reach such high notes with my voice surprisingly.
normally i just do acapella harmonising.

jammed at kreta ayer.
not bad a room.
maybe a bit too small but it was fully equipped.
clashes of song interests though.
plus philipp's LOUD emotions and timo's hollers.
but we were ok on the whole.
didnt record anything though.
everything was just plain crunch and beat.
date me to jam sometime.

you're a jewel to sparkle around my neck
the fragrant scent of morning i cannot forget.

~~perfect~~ion at 3:08 AM

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Tuesday, December 27, 2005

ok this entry is a repeat one.
FOR BEL.
scroll down down down for today's actual entry.

i love my juniors !
they're the sweetest little things man.
the whole powerpuff seniors skit thing was simply pure creativity.
two thumbs up kids.
i was so touched !
it suddenly dawned on me that i would be leaving SNBT.
joining a new team next year.
i'll always remember the warmth of the SNBT family literally.
that fuzzy wuzzy feeling when everybody loves everybody.
no fights no bites just plain unity.
i'll miss the days when we stoned together after training.
when we bitched about everything under the sun.
when we pressed on during the physical together.
how we encouraged each other on court cheering our guts out.
parting is really such sweet sorrow.

the two people i'll miss most when i leave are my dotters.
dotter: thanks for always being my source of strength.
the times when we shared so much of our lives with each other.
how this inter-dependence was slowly formed.
i've always appreciated how you looked up to me for support and encouragement.
especially when your knee injury got in the way.
i'm glad i was the first one you'd always turn to.
the pooling sessions we had at your place were the best.
sometimes you'd cheer me up without even knowing it.
how i'd always bug you about your irregular training attendance.
i'll never forget the ups and downs we've been through together.
i really cannot find the words to describe this right now.
you were so much a part of my life that now i find it hard to say goodbye.
just so you know.
you're the coolest bitch ever.
i love you dotter.

dotter dotter: my precious little thing.
i'll never forget the times when we stood on court together and showed our opponents what real fighting spirit was.
how we relied on each other so much for mental support especially on court.
plmgss at woodlands and tkgs at tampines.
our most memorable matches.
i still remember our tkgs matchpoint where i said.
trust your ahbu i'm here.
and you really entrusted the whole court area to me.
oh that was hilarious but we did it.
you taught me how to really care for somebody from the bottom of my heart.
such a joy you've been throughout my whole SNBT life.
carry on my doubles legacy i know you have the potential.
remember you're always mommy's little girl.
i love you dotter dotter.

to my C division team in 2003:
i'll never forget how the ten of us stuck together in the midst of adversity.
how you all supported me as a captain.
how you all co-operated so it would make my job easier.
how we fought shoulder to shoulder on court.
your enthusiasm and passion for this team was indeed an inspiration.
each and everyone of you made our achievements come to pass.
including those who have left ( annabel and shujun ).
you're the best team any captain could have asked for.

to all the xiao de:
dont let the SNBT tradition die ok !
remember that each and every one of you plays a part in the success of the team.
work with jiao lian and sunbye :D
trust in them they are the pillars of this team.
train hard and stay focused.
study hard too or you'll have problems coming your way.
and enjoy yourself along the way because you're part of a great team !
joining the st. nicholas badminton ~~team~~ family is one thing i never regretted.
keep our SNBT spirit alive for generations to come !

ok this is a super long entry.
too emotion-filled.
did i say I LOVE ALL MY JUNIORS !
this SNBT camaraderie will never die :)

fighting crime trying to save the world
here they come just in time
the powerpuff seniors
POWERPUFF !

~~perfect~~ion at 3:12 AM

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Monday, December 26, 2005

oh dear.
my bio clock's way screwed.
and how many days are there left till school starts.
its exactly 6.44am at this very moment.
with gorillaz's dare on mtv.

inspiration was flowing like crazy today.
spent christmas writing lyrics.
now how's that.
you might just be that person in one of my compositions.
Brooke was great company.

took my designated step.
whether its rendered useful.
we'll have to wait and see.
hopefully its in the right direction.
or its my head in the ground.
everything may come to naught.
my fork road.

why cant it be the way it was
where pain was only plastic guns
you are a million miles away.

~~perfect~~ion at 6:41 AM

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Sunday, December 25, 2005

this is so dumb.
i have no braincells left now and i'm blogging.
cranked up from a long day.
and i dont know why.
but i'm starting to respond to people calling me "dhay".
my apparent surname.
goodness gracious.

the inn was injected with occasional humour.
other than that i thought the songs were quite draggy.
and where was the cruxifiction?
they totally cancelled that part.
but i was appalled by adult service behaviour.
ridiculous and void of respect.
shall not comment too much on it.

went for shih's last minute bbq.
jammed at his place.
jamming session was awesome with the guitar pros.
his house is so cosy and it includes a dog !
happy the dog.
its light and sits on your lap and lets you use a pick to strum its tummy.
now how adorable is that.

my ideal house visit package:
elec/acous guits
keyboard
drumset
pool table
dogs
if you have most of these incentives you probably will be able to attract me to your crib.

and we feel like rain
when the words all sound the same
as the curtain closes on another day.

~~perfect~~ion at 4:08 AM

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Saturday, December 24, 2005

new blog address.
relink me please.

xmas shopping done.
forgive me if some of the presents are absolutely random.
everything was last minute.
and glory found my green transparent pick !
its like one of my dearests.

i'd really like to reach out to that someone.
but i have no idea how.
that someone would really make a great friend deep inside.
but he just lacks the confidence.
that self-belief to know he's worth so much more.
dont want him to take off thinking its him against the world.
neither do i want him to live every single day trying to prove something to somebody for the rest of his life.
i just pray that he'll take a turn for the better.
or that i'd have the guts to tell him.

something that ran across my mind.
remember in lower primary.
the phrase "heaved a sigh of relief" was known to be one of the hottest phrases.
cuz it'd score you high marks for composition.

beyond the door
there's peace i'm sure
and i know there'll be no more
tears in heaven.

~~perfect~~ion at 12:09 AM